Cancer Journal 116

 I had a PSA test this week that showed my level to be too low to be detectable.  I am finding it monotonous to note how monotonous the same result is each time.  I have nothing new to say about the subject of monotony.

There was a woman who read my article in Volume One (see #115) and spoke to a friend about it.  The friend knows me and suggested that the woman might want to discuss cancer with me.  She has been diagnosed with breast cancer with concern over metastasizing into her lungs.  We did meet for lunch and the conversation was good.  At the end of it, I asked her if we could pray about things.  We did and I believe the Holy Spirit was there.  She asked or I offered praying regularly about cancer.  We have done that once since over the phone.

 There is an intense prayer that I can enter into which sounds bizarre. Terrible agonized noises or intense weeping etc.  Sounds like I am having just an awful time.  Actually, I am doing just fine.  I can be thinking of what I will have for lunch.

Anyway, I generally don't pray for people going full bore in the way that prompts that kind of behavior.  There is one person used to it.  Otherwise I do it on my own.  Anyway, I did pray for this woman over the phone and strongly felt to pray with all I had which meant doing the above.  I warned her and told her that although it sounded as though I was in extreme misery, I really wasn't.  I didn't hold back and she was fine about it although she was glad for the heads up.  I told her latter that I didn't know which was weirder, my prayer or her untroubled acceptance of it.  She said that she thought I had a gift which put things in a little different light for me.  If it is, in fact, a gift, I should maybe not be so concerned about whether it was presentable in polite society.

Her spots in her lungs have been biopsied this week and found to be cancerous, meaning that the cancer has metastasized.  Makes things several times more serious.  It would be natural for her to find things unfair.  She does everything right.  Her diet is designed to discourage cancer.  She exercises intensely which should starve cancer.  She follows an alternate treatment program that is the best there is.  Her feelings about me are surely ambivalent.  On the one hand, I offer a basis for hope.  On the other hand, how come me and not her.  However, it is still early.  Plenty of room to beat this thing. 

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