Cancer Journal

 I had my PSA  levels checked again yesterday and again, they were too low to be detectable.  I had emailed the oncology specialist ahead of time to tell her that I would like to discuss a pause in taking my meds--three or six months.  Testosterone is better than no testosterone, everything else being equal.  Everything else is not equal was the upshot of our discussion.  Open that box and she feared what would come out of it.  I guess I see that.  She said we could discuss it again in 2023.   Last time I had my three month injection of the stuff that turns off the T, I asked the injector lady to tell me something about herself that I wouldn't have known.  Turned out she had been a professional water skier who had traveled around the world, water skiing.  I told the lady who did the injection this time all about that and she tried to figure out who that could have been.  I asked her to tell me something about herself that ...

         Mother Westwind’s Children  Indulgent, passive, Mother Westwind looks on  but does not reprimand as her children,  the Merry Little Breezes, make mischief,  mess up plans of very small creatures,  snatch away tiny things that don’t belong to them,  play keep-away with a kind of frolicking spite.  Mother Westwind should keep better control  but the depleted will of the old is no match  for the determined, vital will of the young.    Perhaps she’s wise to conserve her energy  and watch, smiling at the fun. Mother Westwind has other children though, grown-up strong men, with manly names like Gale, whose days of foolishness and mischief are over.  Now working dynamos, generating power, full of consequence. In times past, muscling ship across the seas,  full sail, full billow, the rigging singing a high pitched song.  The ship, cutting through the waves, ...